My story is quite complicated but I will start by telling you that I was officially diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) due to untreated PTSD about a year ago. I was also diagnosed with Depression at that time as well.
It’s been rough at times, I won’t lie.
They put me on an anti-depressant/ anxiety meds which has helped tremendously but I think the realization that I went so long without being on medication bothers me the most.
I try not to dwell on the past or regret but I can’t help the what if this and what if that… knowing that things/outcomes would have been different.
This all feeds the anxiety… I guess its just one big “cycle”. The key is breaking it.
Talking, sharing does help. Knowing that I am not alone… knowing that i’m not “crazy” and what I feel is “real”.
Before I was diagnosed in Dec 2017, I was convinced that I had a health issue. Pre-Menopause, Gluten Allergy, Candida, and even a Thyroid issue at one point. You can tell I was definitely “internet” diagnosing…
But I would do anything to “feel better” even though I had no idea what was wrong with me. When I went to see a doctor (now my regular PCP – had not had one of those since I was a kid); he knew what was wrong with me after 15 minutes of speaking to me…
My advice** get a PCP — seriously, if you think something is going on with your health, (nobody knows your body like you do); see a doctor! Don’t put it off like I did for YEARS until it manifests into daily meltdowns and wanting to check myself into the hospital ~ yes, it got that bad…
I am so thankful that I have a great PCP, Therapist and Psychiatrist. And its not impossible if you don’t have insurance; Their are programs out there but you have to do some research.